L. A. Warman: Debt, Kartoniert / Broschiert

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Debt is a product manufactured to create desire. Fantasy costs a lot of money. There is a girl. There is everything she wants. She gets it. She doesn't get it. She gets it, she wants more. In the city she can be who she wants to be, in the countryside she is who she has to be. Accumulation works, then it doesn't. Soon, she is indebted to everyone. Debt creates relation. To try to pay her debt she tries more and more drastic measures: pregnancy, death, love. But will she ever pay? And if she does will the currency be recognized?

An unnamed protagonist fucks her way through the lesbians of New York City in borrowed apartments before returning to the only home she can afford, a two hour drive out into the countryside. In the city she can be whoever she wants. Her collection of sample sale clothes and fake designer bags grants the affect of wealth and she attracts suitors beyond those she is used to. These new suitors have jobs The protagonist attempts to be desired in a way that will protect and take care of her, but instead finds herself taking on more and more debts, both literal and metaphorical. She digs and digs until all she knows is hole.

Debt explores the economics of desirability and the way capitalist patriarchy infiltrates queer community. Over time, our protagonist breaks through this rigid strategic approach to really fall in love with a non-binary transmasc person. Together, they create a Dom / sub dynamic. She does everything she is told to do and unlocks a new reality where she can relax and open herself up. They teach her how to accept care through domination and control. But, will her hole ever really be filled?